Randomness

Yeah. This entry is almost pure shit.

• Kakagaling ko lang ng 3-day retreat last night. Then nag-away kami ng Mommy ko. Sana ok na ngayon. Kanina umalis ako we had a little talk. Almost like the other days. I don’t know. So awkward, I was supposed to be good, pero we had a fight. Hayy. Enough of those, I want enough of all of those!

• So last night, I slept really early. I-tinulog ko na lang yung sama ng loob ko.

• This morning, I was late for P.E. class. The day’s almost like shit. Talaga. Tama ba namang pumasok ng late, tapos wala pa akong ballpen. And then, Shoot! Wala yung mga kasama ko. Like they eloped. Hindi man lang nagpasabi na hindi sila papasok.

• We had a test, and I think I flunked it.

• Pero buti na lang I had the test. Better than not having the test plus the execution next Saturday.

• First duty ko on Monday. Glad! Out Patient Unit. My c.i. is Ma’m Eullo. 7am - 6pm. I’m excited. But nervous. I can’t get any happy and at the same time, scared about this. May the good Lord help me. I don’t know what to do.

• So, I’ll be studyin’ my notes last sem. And I’ll do a couple of school works now. After I log off.

• I don’t really know when I’ll be online again. I haven’t done this for a couple of weeks. I’m dedicated now, remember?

• The retreat, it was fun. Had some yosi jams with my new friends. haha. Pero the session itself was really fun. I love Kuya Edwin! Really!

• And now, too elementary, I know, but I’m having a crush again. EAP, his initials. I like him. To the extent that I daydream about him wanting to talk to me, and the likes. At nagpapahuli pa ako ng mga tingin from him ah. Sana tinitignan nya rin ako. (Ego: Hello? Audrey? Wish mo lang no?!) Anyway. He’s hot. He’s got a nice bod. Really huge. Pero not huge-huge ah. I mean maskulado to! Hindi puro adipose. Haha =). I think with him, I’ll feel payat. Hehe. And really serious about the Church. He’s a Born-again Christian.

• I like EAP. I think I’m gonna talk about him in my entries now.

• Like he careS? Like someone reads this? Whew!

• I love life, ironically.

Lazzyyy Friday

But it was fun, really. As I’ve said, I’ve probably outgrown going to the mall, for I have been spending so much time at the mall since sembreak started. Plus the fact that I’m so broke. Really, I miss bumming around the house.

Turns out to be otherwise. Kinda.

My Mom sort of forced us to keep our butts off our seats and be a couch potato no more to help her clean the house, I strongly disagreed but to no avail. I cleaned our refrigerator instead. After that - nah. I just watched TV. And this afternoon? I did PC works namely, lurking through other people’s lives, and doing this entry.

Tada … Regina Belmonte!! Finally! I’ve got to see her lj. She’s really nice, to ever comment on my previous blog, and adding me back to her lj friends. If I remember it right, we’ve YM’d months ago, and yes indeed, she’s so down to earth! Aside from the fact that she is undeniably a good writer, young as her age. Plus, she’s so pretty ha!

I’ve been having tummy aches today. I’ve been constipated this week, and it kills me. Today, aside from my tummy ache, I had a headache too. Turns out, it’s just because of that. Now, after I had my bath this afternoon (yes, I took a bath soooo late), I felt just relieved. Relieved to ever get my butt here in front of the PC and work, so to say.

Tomorrow, the family minus my sis, will head off to Bulacan to work some things out with my relatives there.

Hope I’ll have a fruitful weekend! ‘Tis the last weekend of my sembreak days. My happy slash too tiring slash STILL enjoyable sembreak is finally over. And because of that I missed school so much but not really that much. Labo.

So To Say

I realized I could not afford to provide myself a 14k +Gigabyte mp3 Player. Not yet. I can, probably when I get to earn money, but not now. After which, my family’s not really that rich, to even think of spending an mp3 player worth thousands of bucks for the daughter slash music addict daughter. And yes, miracles only could ever make it happen.

Alternatives, and yes. There are always some alternatives. While strolling down the digital floor of SM Southmall, I cast my eyes on this really cute 1gb mp3 player and honestly, I couldn’t get my eyes off this gadget. My goodness, a 1gb mp3 player for only 8k+. THat’s quite a lot, I thought.

And that’s none other than .. tada .. the Creative Zen Nano Plus! I’ll get one if and only if, I’ll get good grades this sem.

You see, I badly need a large capacity mp3 player for my growing number of music collecton. 1gb would be enough for me to take all my music with me, anytime, anywhere. Y’all know, my music collection isn’t that big but isn’t that small either. 1gb is enough enough enough!

PLease Lord, let me have one!!!

I wrote one entry about this weeks ago on my blogspot journal. I got a bunch of comments to live by which are just so inspiring - still wanting me to be on it. Mind you, they came from some of those few good writers! I’ll quote it here.

From Ate Floi:

Ala Paredes once told me that envy is actually a good thing. It fuels our passion and makes us strive harder to reach our goals. Nobody can foresee our own future, my dear, except ourselves. If you pictured yourself hard enough of who you want to be or what you want to do, it just might be. ^_^ Keep writing, Audrey.^_^

From Regina:

Hey. Don’t ever stop writing! Don’t let the negative comments get you down; they should inspire you to improve even more, if only to prove those people wrong. Honestly, everyone has to start somewhere. (Trust me, I have years worth of terrible pre-teen fanfiction hidden away that I cringe at.) Much love, Regina (who found your blog when she Googled her name to look for pictures from an event that she was at because her camera wouldn’t fit into her dress)

All Saints Day Blues

Yesterday was not so much fun. We went to the cemetery at dawn and I slept in the camping tent the moment we arrived there for hours (up to 9am). Ok then, it rained. Such a messy day, I think. Not until it reached noon then the sun strikes right above us. So freakin’ hot. That I got a sunburned skin (ouch), which I realized just this morning. Not really fun, from mess to fuss.

I’m broke I’m broke, so broke. Only got 40 bucks cash in wallet, my ATMs are with my Mom (she fears me having to lose it again, since I lost my wallet last Sept.)then no. Ok lang sa totoo lang eh, ’cause when I’m with my Mom, she pays for everything. Not everything I want, but anything I need. Turns out that I make my wants  my needs when I confide to her. Daya no. Anyway.

Nangungutang sakin si Charity ng 3thou, I don’t have any cash on hand. I want to lend her some money pero my Mom obviously won’t allow me. Not that she’s rude or anything. Just that, I don’t know. Naisip ko, di naman ako kumikita, magpapautang pa ako. In the first place, all my savings in the bank came from my Mom. So she may have the guts to say No. The fact is, Cha’s gonna give me back the money by Wed. Kung maibabalik nga nya. I want to ask where’ll she’s gonna use the money. Para may reason ako kay Mommy dear, but can’t find a way how.

Hay, Life..

Wala Lang Naman

Wala na naman akong ginawa ngayon. Hay shit. I’m tired… of doing nothing.

But I hate always doing something.

Labo.

Plaht.

Tom. Punta kami cemetery. Stay kami dun for 12 hours. Excited - medjo. But to think na I have to wake up by 3am and get ready and we’re staying there hanggang pagtirik talaga ng araw/ Shit talaga.

Antok na ko.

xcess: Shit. Si Kris may new fone na. Samsung E530. *inggitaku* bwahahahaha. My Lord, please help me get away from this feeling.

Bahala na. I’m hoping to have one .. tada .. when I get a job. Hiya na ko magpabili sa nanay ko!

Pero ito, when I get good grades, gusto ko ng bagong mp3 player!!!! Creative Zen Micro, dud. Sobrang ganda. Pootah.

I’m gonna have this one! Sana bumaba na yung price next year!

Have watched A Lot Like Love last night. Grabe. Super ganda. Haaayyy.. Wish to meet someone like that!

Hay Audrey! Enough!

Not Another Day In The Mall

Sounds like I’m not having fun, ha. But really, I am. It’s just that I’m getting bored doing the same thing again.

This time around the QC area. We went to Gateway after we visited the cemetery in Marikina. It’s my first time there and I love it.

We ate out, shopped for some things. It’s actually them who shopped for some things. I didn’t buy anything ’cause I’m broke. (read: only 150 bucks in the wallet). But I’m supposed to buy my school shoes but I didn’t ’cause I don’t have the size.

Afterwards, before we left the mall, we bought some breads from Bread Talk. Damn, I super love there breads! I love it there. I’m coming back there one of these days. The one we had was Hokaido (spell?). I’m not sure if that’s really the name. Basta, I super love it. Sabi nila meron daw sa Town Center which is nearer to our place. Sana nga meron. (fingers crossed)

That’s all. I’m not in the writing mood today.

But I’m posting the lyrics of my current favorite songs:

Ever After - Bonnie Bailey

Three years ago, our journey began
Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark
Just knowing with conviction from the start

The moment your eyes made an introduction
I felt my second violent breath of life
Flawless to the point of being godly
Yet I fell hard for your imperfections

And now we’re slightly weathered, we’re slightly worn
Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet
I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh
Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,
And there ain’t no current in this river we can’t ride
I still believe in ever after with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like we’re floating, when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love, and not the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine

Emotions, volcanic eruptions
We both still care, so we’re still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you, I want to make it right

And now we’re slightly weathered, we’re slightly worn
Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet
I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh
Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,
And there ain’t no current in this river we can’t ride
I still believe in ever after with you

You are my twisted sunshine
You are my twisted sunshine

And now we’re slightly weathered, we’re slightly worn
Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet
I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh
Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,
And there ain’t no current in this river we can’t ride
I still believe in ever after with you

And now we’re slightly weathered, we’re slightly worn
Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet
I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh
Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,
And there ain’t no current in this river we can’t ride
I still believe in ever after with you

My Humps - Black Eyed Peas

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside your trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely little lumps. (Check it out)

I drive these brothers crazy,
I do it on the daily,
They treat me really nicely,
They buy me all these ice-ys.
Dolce & Gabbana,
Fendi and then Donna
Karan, they be sharin’
All their money got me wearin’
Fly gearrr but I ain’t askin,
They say they love my ass ‘n,
Seven Jeans, True Religion’s,
I say no, but they keep givin’
So I keep on takin’
And no I ain’t taken
We can keep on datin’
I keep on demonstrating.

My love, my love, my love, my love
You love my lady lumps,
My hump, my hump, my hump,
My humps they got u,
She’s got me spending.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.
She’s got me spendin’.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
What u gon’ do with all that ass?
All that ass inside them jeans?
I’m a make, make, make, make you scream
Make u scream, make you scream.
Cos of my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely lady lumps. (Check it out)

I met a girl down at the disco.
She said hey, hey, hey yea let’s go.
I could be your baby, you can be my honey
Lets spend time not money.
I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,
Milky, milky cocoa,
Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight.

They say I’m really sexy,
The boys they wanna sex me.
They always standing next to me,
Always dancing next to me,
Tryin’ a feel my hump, hump.
Lookin’ at my lump, lump.
U can look but you can’t touch it,
If u touch it I’ma start some drama,
You don’t want no drama,
No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama
So don’t pull on my hand boy,
You ain’t my man, boy,
I’m just tryn’a dance boy,
And move my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.
My lovely lady lumps [x3]
In the back and in the front.
My lovin’ got u,
She’s got me spendin’.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.
She’s got me spendin’.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
What you gon’ do with all that ass?
All that ass inside them jeans?
I’ma make, make, make, make you scream
Make you scream, make you scream.
What you gon do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,
Get you love drunk off this hump.
What you gon’ do wit all that breast?
All that breast inside that shirt?
I’ma make, make, make, make you work
Make you work, work, make you work.
She’s got me spendin’.
Spendin all your money on me and spendin’ time on me
She’s got me spendin’.
Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

Not included: Someday by Barbie’s Cradle - really cute!!

And now, I’m gonna watch A Lot Like Love!! Finally!

Nothing Unusual

Really. We just ate out - AGAIN. Gee, sa araw araw na lang ng ginawa ni Lord sa sembreak days ko. I have this feeling that I’m getting fat. Haha.:) But nevermind, I enjoyed it at least.

Yellowcab’s the place. My Mom treated us again, as always. She just couldn’t contain her joy regarding my sister being on the Dean’s List. She had a 10 thou discount with her tuition. But at least, that would be a lot for her. ;D

We headed off to my Tita’s party after siesta. We ate again. It’s not really fun. But then, at least I got to sing in the videoke. Nothing much really happened. :-\

Tomorrow we’re going to Loyola Marikina to visit my lolo and lola.

So there, halloween’s coming near, and I have this stereotype feeling that every halloween, it’s always scary. Oh well. I can’t sleep anymore with the lights off lately . I’m jsut scaring myself. Haha

 :)      ;D  >:(        ???  ::)    :-[  :-X  :-\  :-*  :’(

I’m sorry for that ^. I’m just trying out the smileys…

Hello, Me!

Nice title, huh. Anyway, it’s only me who gets to see this and eventually who knows that this blog exist in WWW. Last night, I posted the link to my previous blog but deleted it afterwards. Hello, can’t you remember .. this blog must be private. Private, in a sense that nobody I know (at least) would read this. ‘Cause this time, I’d be using real names unlike in blogspot, where I use codenames, which is so grade school, and really awkward. And besides, everything written here isn’t really gramatically formatted, and has no formality and the likes. Pure randomness. I don’t double check anymore the entries for fear that some criticisms may arise from other people.

Anyway. I feel that I’m in a writing mood today but actually I’m not. Really. I don’t have anything to write about. Except of course the happenings for this day, which is quite, uhm .. normal. So normal.

But I’m happy, as always.

I went out with the family today. My sister, Leah got it on the dean’s list and that eventually called for a celebration. We ate out. It’s Mommy Annie’s treat and Pizza Hut’s the place. Nilubos ko lahat. We had a family sized pizza, and I ordered for more: my fave Fetcucini Alfredo (spell?). We also had a salad bar.

Duh. I’m quite envious of my sister. Really. Why would she get such honor when I won’t even have one in those many times that I promised my Mom. Tsk tsk. Life, sometimes is unfair. Oh well, my ultimate dream is to experience such great award at least before I expire.

Ok so it’s just like that. That’s the highlights of this day. And yes, I’m forgetting something.

As if I have to really write about this. Anyway, I arranged this blog. The pages, and everything. Through constant tweaking, I’m able to come up with this. Thanks to i.ph. They’re just superb. I always tell this, but I really love this blog, and the whole i.ph itself. I really wish I could share with my friends my new blog, but I can’t. This is entirely private (from my friends) and I decided to keep this blog such to have a worry-free entry writing session everytime I post. So as not to often other people by my meanest words whenever I get mad.

p.s. And why didn’t anybody tell me the something as great as this i.ph thingy exist in blogworld? Glad I was able to come here.

p.s.2. We rented some vcds: 3 ashton kutcher’s flicks Finally! I’ll be able to watch A Lot Like Love which I long wanted to watch earlier this year. Finaly Finally Finally!

Second Sem Updates

Ok, kanina, Jen went to school and told me who’ll be my classmates this second sem. Except only for Miguel (Wong) and Prim, there aren’t really much close friends who will be my classmates this Sem.

At first, Jen gladly told me that Eugene will be my classmate. But then when I told her Eugene’s surname, ta-dah .. apparently, it’s not him Which makes me sad. But the hell, I don’t care about him anymore. Haha.

Hmmmm .. Wong … Miguel. .. my long time crush, which I’ve been keeping to myself for so long. Probably because he’s a good friend and I don’t want to ruin our relation with timidness. Anyway ..  So, will this be a chance for us to get close?

Not really. Partly yes, but mostly NO. I don’t wanna expect and besides I think that our friendship’s too fragile to be just broken like that. There isn’t any possibilities for him to like me, but for me to like him, there are so much posibilities.

So I just left it all off to dreaming, imagining, which is my most fave thing to do.

And besides, I’ve got to focus myself to STUDIES. SUper ibang level na to. As in. I have to be dead serious, ’cause any mistake will lead me to nowhere. And nowhere isn’t really on my plan.

Second Semester

Just learned my new section this semester: 2A. Oh God, K isn’t my classmate anymore. I’m partly glad about that and partly sad too. Glad because, Alas, I’ll get rid of her jokes-which-aren’t-really-jokes-for-me remarks and her proud aura and at the same time sad, ’cause I don’t have someone who is close to me to get through my second sem. But then, all I could just do in God’s will and all for His glory.

School’s been pretty hectic last semester. I’ve been happy, sad, anxious, nervous - mixed emotions actually. But mostly, nervous. Nervous about my grades - how everything will come about. All because I’ve been cramming the whole sem. I don’t know, it’s just me. I always cram. I always think I do productive things whenever I cram. But really, that’s not right.

So now, I commit myself to always do something and worry about nothing. At least that’ll lessen my anxious thoughts and feelings because I know I’ve done something which will help me get a good grade.

I’m excited about the second sem!

My Subjects:
Health Care 2 w/ RLE (HSC103)
Microbiology and Parasitology (HSC105)
Nutrition (NPP101)
Intro. to Literature (HU103)
Science, Technology and Society (SCT101)
Basic Statistics (MA103)
Speech and Oral Communication (EN106)
Christian Commitment and Responsible Parenthood (RE104)
Team Sports (PE104)
VH (SSC110D)

Love Actually

I love that film! Anyway, this is not about that.

Love - ah, the word that always fascinates me. Unluckily, I haven’t experienced it yet - or worse - I don’t know if I ever did experience it at one point of my life.

But of course I do. I have my Lord, my family, some friends. But I’m not talking about that here.

Well - this category accounts for one thing - Love. You know - being in love, romantically involved with SOMEONE.

Honestly, I’m looking forward to experience that magical day.

I’ve been always disappointed with my past encounters and prospects that’s why i’m a bit sad when it comes to this topic. All because I have nothing to share about.

Always, I got nothing to talk about when it comes to love. I don’t know what exactly is wrong, is it with me, or anything. But that thing makes me worry.

I never got anyone fall head over heels with me. Or get to be really close with me. Or at least liked me. Or for the most part in my case, court me.

What’s wrong with me? Am I not beautiful enough?

Friends

I’ve had plenty of them. But sad to say, it’s not with everyone that I get to be always happy. At some point, I get tired of some pointless relations with them - that I end up being happy not being with them.

I want friends whom I get to be myself - just plain me. Who accepts everything about me and does not try to change me.

Glad there’s some: my highschool friends. The Giants to be exact. They are the kind of persons whom I gladly describes previously. They are those whom I get to laugh with - and talk about everything. They have this ability to tell what’s good about me without any fake remarks behind and to tell what’s not so good about me (read: bad) but then I never get offended. And that’s what I love about Marigail, Paola, Razeille, Razhelyn, Jemma, Ruiza.

It’s Marigail whom I am closest to. I don’t know, I just can’t explain the kind of friendship I have with this girl. Actually words can never be enough to do so. I just love her to death and I practically consider life without her, nonsense.

Sad to say, in college, I never had anyone with whom I have nothing against - especially with the way they treat me. Anyway, I don’t have some courage to tell everything up here -Yet. Time will tell when.

My Life Today

Not hectic - everything’s just swifting slowly.

I’ve been thinking less about anything. Probably because school is mostly my life. But other than that - nah.

And I’m loving it.

What I’ve been doing: maintaining the cleanliness of my room, ironing out clothes, folding up clothes, washing the dishes.

Almost all are pretty household chores. Which I gladly do to be of help to my Mom. She needs help. Everything’s piled up on her, so I guess this sem break, I got to do something to lessen her tasks.

God Moves In Mysterious Ways

It’s God that do, not exactly love. Well I guess, because it’s God who made love possible.

Anyway. I’ve been pretty religious lately. I’v actually commited myself to Him. Only that I’m a bit guilty, ’cause I only get to be like this JUST LATELY. But then He is great, He never left me. Rain or shine, I know He’s been there. Just my bad, that I only get to notice Him whenever I’m sad, and depressed.

But the good thing is, I’ve been aware of it, and I’m changing. It is He who is the sole reason why everything just happens. I know whatever it may be, he Has a purpose and His purpose is divine and everything is for my own good. He knows best that’s why.

So I thank thee Lord for helping me get through it. I may not be changing things that fast, but gradually, I’m doing all this for your glory. Thank you my Jesus.

And Mama Mary. I love you Jesus and Mary. Thanks my Lord.

I’m sorry for this

‘Cause I’ll be doing an entry for every category for the meantime. I’m having fun that’s why. =)

I’m loving this

Honestly, I’m loving this i.ph so much. I like how everything works. How easy things could be here. I can do some things which I long wanted to do on my previous blog: to have a simple, fuss free design, but really presentable; and the categories, baby. It’s great!

I really like the design of my blog. Though it’s NOT completely coded by me. But I can proudly say that it was designed by yours truly, with the help of the easy to use and really handy design tools available here in i.ph.

Cool

New Blog - AGAIN

Yes. I got a new blog. For the nth time.

Honestly, I don’t really know what am I gonna write about. I lost my post just minutes ago. Guess, I’m still confused here. But really, I’m loving this. I love the design and how everything can be managed and worked on.

But this blog is a different one. I want this to be completely private - with no audience to impress about, and to care about while writing. At least nobody I know. All this, I’ve been doing for myself. To enhance my writing skills, and to practice further. No formality, or anything to that attempt.

I got tired of my old blog. Sometimes, we get bored over some things. But in my case, that happens usually. Not really about changing blogs, per se. But with life, and the things in life.

Change is constant. It’s a fact.

My New Phone

Nokia 1600. So simple. Nothing much about it. But I super love it. Really. That’s just me. So simple, no fuss and worry free.

I’m gonna keep this for life.