Randomness
November 19, 2005Yeah. This entry is almost pure shit.
- Kakagaling ko lang ng 3-day retreat last night. Then nag-away kami ng Mommy ko. Sana ok na ngayon. Kanina umalis ako we had a little talk. Almost like the other days. I don’t know. So awkward, I was supposed to be good, pero we had a fight. Hayy. Enough of those, I want enough of all of those!
- So last night, I slept really early. I-tinulog ko na lang yung sama ng loob ko.
- This morning, I was late for P.E. class. The day’s almost like shit. Talaga. Tama ba namang pumasok ng late, tapos wala pa akong ballpen. And then, Shoot! Wala yung mga kasama ko. Like they eloped. Hindi man lang nagpasabi na hindi sila papasok.
- We had a test, and I think I flunked it.
- Pero buti na lang I had the test. Better than not having the test plus the execution next Saturday.
- First duty ko on Monday. Glad! Out Patient Unit. My c.i. is Ma’m Eullo. 7am - 6pm. I’m excited. But nervous. I can’t get any happy and at the same time, scared about this. May the good Lord help me. I don’t know what to do.
- So, I’ll be studyin’ my notes last sem. And I’ll do a couple of school works now. After I log off.
- I don’t really know when I’ll be online again. I haven’t done this for a couple of weeks. I’m dedicated now, remember?
- The retreat, it was fun. Had some yosi jams with my new friends. haha. Pero the session itself was really fun. I love Kuya Edwin! Really!
- And now, too elementary, I know, but I’m having a crush again. EAP, his initials. I like him. To the extent that I daydream about him wanting to talk to me, and the likes. At nagpapahuli pa ako ng mga tingin from him ah. Sana tinitignan nya rin ako. (Ego: Hello? Audrey? Wish mo lang no?!) Anyway. He’s hot. He’s got a nice bod. Really huge. Pero not huge-huge ah. I mean maskulado to! Hindi puro adipose. Haha =). I think with him, I’ll feel payat. Hehe. And really serious about the Church. He’s a Born-again Christian.
- I like EAP. I think I’m gonna talk about him in my entries now.
- Like he careS? Like someone reads this? Whew!
- I love life, ironically.
Lazzyyy Friday
November 4, 2005But it was fun, really. As I’ve said, I’ve probably outgrown going to the mall, for I have been spending so much time at the mall since sembreak started. Plus the fact that I’m so broke. Really, I miss bumming around the house.
Turns out to be otherwise. Kinda.
My Mom sort of forced us to keep our butts off our seats and be a couch potato no more to help her clean the house, I strongly disagreed but to no avail. I cleaned our refrigerator instead. After that - nah. I just watched TV. And this afternoon? I did PC works namely, lurking through other people’s lives, and doing this entry.
Tada … Regina Belmonte!! Finally! I’ve got to see her lj. She’s really nice, to ever comment on my previous blog, and adding me back to her lj friends. If I remember it right, we’ve YM’d months ago, and yes indeed, she’s so down to earth! Aside from the fact that she is undeniably a good writer, young as her age. Plus, she’s so pretty ha!
I’ve been having tummy aches today. I’ve been constipated this week, and it kills me. Today, aside from my tummy ache, I had a headache too. Turns out, it’s just because of that. Now, after I had my bath this afternoon (yes, I took a bath soooo late), I felt just relieved. Relieved to ever get my butt here in front of the PC and work, so to say.
Tomorrow, the family minus my sis, will head off to Bulacan to work some things out with my relatives there.
Hope I’ll have a fruitful weekend! ‘Tis the last weekend of my sembreak days. My happy slash too tiring slash STILL enjoyable sembreak is finally over. And because of that I missed school so much but not really that much. Labo. 
So To Say
November 3, 2005I realized I could not afford to provide myself a 14k +Gigabyte mp3 Player. Not yet. I can, probably when I get to earn money, but not now. After which, my family’s not really that rich, to even think of spending an mp3 player worth thousands of bucks for the daughter slash music addict daughter. And yes, miracles only could ever make it happen. 
Alternatives, and yes. There are always some alternatives. While strolling down the digital floor of SM Southmall, I cast my eyes on this really cute 1gb mp3 player and honestly, I couldn’t get my eyes off this gadget. My goodness, a 1gb mp3 player for only 8k+. THat’s quite a lot, I thought.
And that’s none other than .. tada .. the Creative Zen Nano Plus! I’ll get one if and only if, I’ll get good grades this sem.
You see, I badly need a large capacity mp3 player for my growing number of music collecton. 1gb would be enough for me to take all my music with me, anytime, anywhere. Y’all know, my music collection isn’t that big but isn’t that small either. 1gb is enough enough enough!
PLease Lord, let me have one!!!
On Having To Give Up Writing
I wrote one entry about this weeks ago on my blogspot journal. I got a bunch of comments to live by which are just so inspiring - still wanting me to be on it. Mind you, they came from some of those few good writers! I’ll quote it here.
From Ate Floi:
Ala Paredes once told me that envy is actually a good thing. It fuels our passion and makes us strive harder to reach our goals. Nobody can foresee our own future, my dear, except ourselves. If you pictured yourself hard enough of who you want to be or what you want to do, it just might be. ^_^ Keep writing, Audrey.^_^
From Regina:
Hey.
Don’t ever stop writing! Don’t let the negative comments get you down; they should inspire you to improve even more, if only to prove those people wrong. Honestly, everyone has to start somewhere. (Trust me, I have years worth of terrible pre-teen fanfiction hidden away that I cringe at.) Much love, Regina (who found your blog when she Googled her name to look for pictures from an event that she was at because her camera wouldn’t fit into her dress)
All Saints Day Blues
November 2, 2005Yesterday was not so much fun. We went to the cemetery at dawn and I slept in the camping tent the moment we arrived there for hours (up to 9am). Ok then, it rained. Such a messy day, I think. Not until it reached noon then the sun strikes right above us. So freakin’ hot. That I got a sunburned skin (ouch), which I realized just this morning. Not really fun, from mess to fuss.
I’m broke I’m broke, so broke. Only got 40 bucks cash in wallet, my ATMs are with my Mom (she fears me having to lose it again, since I lost my wallet last Sept.)then no. Ok lang sa totoo lang eh, ’cause when I’m with my Mom, she pays for everything. Not everything I want, but anything I need. Turns out that I make my wants my needs when I confide to her. Daya no. Anyway.
Nangungutang sakin si Charity ng 3thou, I don’t have any cash on hand. I want to lend her some money pero my Mom obviously won’t allow me. Not that she’s rude or anything. Just that, I don’t know. Naisip ko, di naman ako kumikita, magpapautang pa ako. In the first place, all my savings in the bank came from my Mom. So she may have the guts to say No. The fact is, Cha’s gonna give me back the money by Wed. Kung maibabalik nga nya. I want to ask where’ll she’s gonna use the money. Para may reason ako kay Mommy dear, but can’t find a way how.
Hay, Life..
