Randomness
November 19, 2005Yeah. This entry is almost pure shit.
- Kakagaling ko lang ng 3-day retreat last night. Then nag-away kami ng Mommy ko. Sana ok na ngayon. Kanina umalis ako we had a little talk. Almost like the other days. I don’t know. So awkward, I was supposed to be good, pero we had a fight. Hayy. Enough of those, I want enough of all of those!
- So last night, I slept really early. I-tinulog ko na lang yung sama ng loob ko.
- This morning, I was late for P.E. class. The day’s almost like shit. Talaga. Tama ba namang pumasok ng late, tapos wala pa akong ballpen. And then, Shoot! Wala yung mga kasama ko. Like they eloped. Hindi man lang nagpasabi na hindi sila papasok.
- We had a test, and I think I flunked it.
- Pero buti na lang I had the test. Better than not having the test plus the execution next Saturday.
- First duty ko on Monday. Glad! Out Patient Unit. My c.i. is Ma’m Eullo. 7am - 6pm. I’m excited. But nervous. I can’t get any happy and at the same time, scared about this. May the good Lord help me. I don’t know what to do.
- So, I’ll be studyin’ my notes last sem. And I’ll do a couple of school works now. After I log off.
- I don’t really know when I’ll be online again. I haven’t done this for a couple of weeks. I’m dedicated now, remember?
- The retreat, it was fun. Had some yosi jams with my new friends. haha. Pero the session itself was really fun. I love Kuya Edwin! Really!
- And now, too elementary, I know, but I’m having a crush again. EAP, his initials. I like him. To the extent that I daydream about him wanting to talk to me, and the likes. At nagpapahuli pa ako ng mga tingin from him ah. Sana tinitignan nya rin ako. (Ego: Hello? Audrey? Wish mo lang no?!) Anyway. He’s hot. He’s got a nice bod. Really huge. Pero not huge-huge ah. I mean maskulado to! Hindi puro adipose. Haha =). I think with him, I’ll feel payat. Hehe. And really serious about the Church. He’s a Born-again Christian.
- I like EAP. I think I’m gonna talk about him in my entries now.
- Like he careS? Like someone reads this? Whew!
- I love life, ironically.
So To Say
November 3, 2005I realized I could not afford to provide myself a 14k +Gigabyte mp3 Player. Not yet. I can, probably when I get to earn money, but not now. After which, my family’s not really that rich, to even think of spending an mp3 player worth thousands of bucks for the daughter slash music addict daughter. And yes, miracles only could ever make it happen. 
Alternatives, and yes. There are always some alternatives. While strolling down the digital floor of SM Southmall, I cast my eyes on this really cute 1gb mp3 player and honestly, I couldn’t get my eyes off this gadget. My goodness, a 1gb mp3 player for only 8k+. THat’s quite a lot, I thought.
And that’s none other than .. tada .. the Creative Zen Nano Plus! I’ll get one if and only if, I’ll get good grades this sem.
You see, I badly need a large capacity mp3 player for my growing number of music collecton. 1gb would be enough for me to take all my music with me, anytime, anywhere. Y’all know, my music collection isn’t that big but isn’t that small either. 1gb is enough enough enough!
PLease Lord, let me have one!!! 
On Having To Give Up Writing
I wrote one entry about this weeks ago on my blogspot journal. I got a bunch of comments to live by which are just so inspiring - still wanting me to be on it. Mind you, they came from some of those few good writers! I’ll quote it here.
From Ate Floi:
Ala Paredes once told me that envy is actually a good thing. It fuels our passion and makes us strive harder to reach our goals. Nobody can foresee our own future, my dear, except ourselves. If you pictured yourself hard enough of who you want to be or what you want to do, it just might be. ^_^ Keep writing, Audrey.^_^
From Regina:
Hey.
Don’t ever stop writing! Don’t let the negative comments get you down; they should inspire you to improve even more, if only to prove those people wrong. Honestly, everyone has to start somewhere. (Trust me, I have years worth of terrible pre-teen fanfiction hidden away that I cringe at.) Much love, Regina (who found your blog when she Googled her name to look for pictures from an event that she was at because her camera wouldn’t fit into her dress)
Wala Lang Naman
October 31, 2005Wala na naman akong ginawa ngayon. Hay shit. I’m tired… of doing nothing.
But I hate always doing something.
Labo.
Plaht.
Tom. Punta kami cemetery. Stay kami dun for 12 hours. Excited - medjo. But to think na I have to wake up by 3am and get ready and we’re staying there hanggang pagtirik talaga ng araw/ Shit talaga.
Antok na ko.
xcess: Shit. Si Kris may new fone na. Samsung E530. *inggitaku* bwahahahaha. My Lord, please help me get away from this feeling.
Bahala na. I’m hoping to have one .. tada .. when I get a job. Hiya na ko magpabili sa nanay ko!
Pero ito, when I get good grades, gusto ko ng bagong mp3 player!!!! Creative Zen Micro, dud. Sobrang ganda. Pootah.
I’m gonna have this one! Sana bumaba na yung price next year!
Have watched A Lot Like Love last night. Grabe. Super ganda. Haaayyy.. Wish to meet someone like that!
Hay Audrey! Enough!
Friends
October 27, 2005I’ve had plenty of them. But sad to say, it’s not with everyone that I get to be always happy. At some point, I get tired of some pointless relations with them - that I end up being happy not being with them.
I want friends whom I get to be myself - just plain me. Who accepts everything about me and does not try to change me.
Glad there’s some: my highschool friends. The Giants to be exact. They are the kind of persons whom I gladly describes previously. They are those whom I get to laugh with - and talk about everything. They have this ability to tell what’s good about me without any fake remarks behind and to tell what’s not so good about me (read: bad) but then I never get offended. And that’s what I love about Marigail, Paola, Razeille, Razhelyn, Jemma, Ruiza.
It’s Marigail whom I am closest to. I don’t know, I just can’t explain the kind of friendship I have with this girl. Actually words can never be enough to do so. I just love her to death and I practically consider life without her, nonsense.
Sad to say, in college, I never had anyone with whom I have nothing against - especially with the way they treat me. Anyway, I don’t have some courage to tell everything up here -Yet. Time will tell when.
I’m sorry for this
‘Cause I’ll be doing an entry for every category for the meantime. I’m having fun that’s why. =)
I’m loving this
Honestly, I’m loving this i.ph so much. I like how everything works. How easy things could be here. I can do some things which I long wanted to do on my previous blog: to have a simple, fuss free design, but really presentable; and the categories, baby. It’s great!
I really like the design of my blog. Though it’s NOT completely coded by me. But I can proudly say that it was designed by yours truly, with the help of the easy to use and really handy design tools available here in i.ph.
Cool
New Blog - AGAIN
Yes. I got a new blog. For the nth time.
Honestly, I don’t really know what am I gonna write about. I lost my post just minutes ago. Guess, I’m still confused here. But really, I’m loving this. I love the design and how everything can be managed and worked on.
But this blog is a different one. I want this to be completely private - with no audience to impress about, and to care about while writing. At least nobody I know. All this, I’ve been doing for myself. To enhance my writing skills, and to practice further. No formality, or anything to that attempt.
I got tired of my old blog. Sometimes, we get bored over some things. But in my case, that happens usually. Not really about changing blogs, per se. But with life, and the things in life.
Change is constant. It’s a fact.
